My resignation : An uncomfortable feeling

Iam in the final days of my notice period and after next 5 days , I would be joining the new company. My mood is currently sober . It is mix of both happiness and sadness.

I am happy for the below reasons

a) Finally took a hard call of parting ways with my current organisation .

b) Got a good break in my career that would aid me to show cause my skill set

c) Gave back to the individual in the same way he spoke to me on Oct 1st 2009. ( Read my another blog ......http://rockykart.blogspot.com/2009/10/hr-pain-or-gain-to-employees.html)

d) I chose family out of two options that was lying ahead of me a ) Family or b) Career Growth

e) I am joining an agressive company

f) I have taken control of my career and its growth.Now I will decide what post and position would best suit me .. not any one else.. I always had a feeling that I was under utilised and my career was decided by someone else.

g) I have proved that I would not let go their self respect at any point in life...

h) I have learnt that loyality and professionalism does not go hand in hand.


I am also sad for the below reasons

a) I did not get this job just like that. I joined this company when it was under Government undertaking . It took lot of pains for me to clear the entrance exam and get on to board as "Technical Assistant". I had to forgo my earlier part time to prepare my self for appearing in entrance exam in 2001.

b) As the saying goes , " You need to lose something to gain something " , When I am leaving this job , I am losing some things which I will never get back. I am leaving back my collegaues and friends .Need less to say that I am parting ways with my all time Guru..

c) Feeling of Attachment to company : This is the company , I used to proudly talk about with my college friends . I do not know why , I have always had a sense of pride when I say to anyone about where I am working with . Probably the Brand of this company had lot to do with my attachment.I feel justified to narrate a small incident that took place in 2001 .

It was time the when my company which was under Government undertaking was disinvested. Two major players were bidding for the same. There was one company with the starting letter "R" and other starting with "T". I was praying to God that the company "T" should buy us out and not the "R" one. Finally , it was T company that took over my company .I was elated and went to extent of cutting the Brand symbol of that "T" company and pasted at top of my Id card . I was even warned by the security head ( DGM) for having tampered with my Id card. Such was the passion , I carried for my company and its brand

d) Last but not the least , Now I would be fighting this same company in the market. I would be fighting against the same friend and colleague of mine. I would say that I am put in same situation of that of Pandavas fighting their own cousin brothers.

What ever it is , I am going to look ahead of my life with positive note .......